Look before you fall

hehe i like the picture i think it's cute ^^
Anyway i actually have nothing much to say...
just bored
i watched harry potter and the half blood prince
it was just average.
but dumbledore died how sad...
but i didn't like the girl that kept going ron ron blah blah irritating

anyway my mum asked me something
i feel i should answer (of course not in front of her face)
she asked me
what happened to you?
you used to be so confident and open last time.
i prefer the old you
what made you change?
i think your friends are bad influences.
the answer
is you.
you caused me to change
you know neglect has many effects on people
depression, loneliness, lost of self confidence
cause we start to think
there is no one to reassure me.
I'm always wrong
so we start to depend on our friends i think.
the open thing?
how can we open
if you're usually not there?
you can't blame us fully i presume
you had a part to play
but you didn't, so
we change...
we adapt it's only human to do so.

wow i'm so deep today hmmm
oh yea ion is cool ok
the stores are all Japanese snacks and stuff
i like the ART BOX store it's so cute >.<
there a bag there that i like.
but it's like $49.90 OxO
must start to save!!

Stress levels increasing phewwwwww

today was an unlucky day for me
1.my itouch was confiscated
2.cannot get into floor ball CCA
3.Got pressurised then cried in class
4.still did not get my itouch back after school... (dora lee won't budge...)
5.took the wrong bus i took 97 instead of 65 then got lost...
i had to walk all the way home
6.combi cuisine cheat my money the serving was so litle and it was $2.40?!

@#$%&*#$%$#%^&&$#!!!

Argh... i think i need to explained why i cried.
ok here's the deal ok?
i'm a cry baby but i don't cry infront of people
and i trained myself to not show emotions
but the only reason i cried today was you people were pressurizing
and cause my parents would skin me alive if they knew...
i don't care if they confiscate my itouch for a day
if i was at fault... we were though.
but my parents are not the nicest people on earth.
you get the picture.
But i'm disapointed with some people who think only of themselves
when others are hurt or in need you know?
what if you were going to die and I had to choose between
my things or you?
And i pick my things?
Or drag people else where just because you are going there?
i mean i'm selfish too
but still.
i'd at least make it up too my friend y'know?
but nevermind haha.
just a thought.
i appreciated the so call comfort.
And thanks to wei ling.
Wei ling do you know i can't live without you?
And chagi you too saranghae!
And samantha sorry for judoing you alll the time gomen ne!
i hope i get my phone back at least...

Today was kinda quiet
Half the class has fever yupp
And my chagi is super sick...
Anis as got gastric
Phebe still sick
Tiffany is sick too I presume
Rachel and joyee are better now but still sick
So left me and Wei ling right?
Well we got sent home
Cause we were talking then I coughed
Yupp stupid me
The teacher asked us are you sick?
Wei ling said she has sore throat
I said I had cough and running nose but not constantly
Then she was like come to the office
Check to see whether we can stay
And we were like shit no
We were begging to stay in school ause we dun wanna go home
Ironic no?
Then we begged teachers to let us stay
They were like go rest go rest
And we were like agh nooooo
Sighh home is super boring...
Tomorrow I have to see the doctor
Miss vidya said she does not want to see me
In school tomorrow ...